I joked with my friends that I was hoping to take things easy for the first trimester, little did I know the slowing down happened somewhat involuntarily, including some hospitalization and more doctor's visits than I can remember.
God has a funny way of making your wishes come true.
It is, however, also a great time for me to learn to slow down. I have always been an active person, energized by activities (Mic used to hate how I wake up early in the mornings, and now I sleep at least 3 hours more than him each day). These two months I had to learn to find peace in a much slower pace and be at ease with my limited physical ability. My friend K gave me a religious book with daily prayers to read, and there was one paragraph that particularly resonated with me.
"In the fast and frenzied pace of this world, allow yourself to submit to the fatigue. Allow it to calm you, settling into the restfulness and peace that come only from God. Thank him for life's slowdowns".
Even though the events of the unstable part of the pregnancy was scary, I am thankful that I had so much time to rest and slow down in probably one of the least comfortable trimesters. I am thankful that my bosses and colleagues have been more than understanding of my situation; I am thankful for the great medical care (and fantastic health insurance!) I have; I am thankful for friends who love and care about me so dearly, and even their mothers for bringing me ginger candy to ease the queasiness; I am thankful for a husband who shows his love in so many ways and a marriage that is just bright and warm like the sun even after 10 years, making me ever confident that we will raise a great family together; I am thankful for the family that I have, for my loving aunt in the US that I can spend hours on the phone with during my insomnia days.
Slowing down, is not so bad after all.
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